Gotta have Faith

 

Wow! It's been a few weeks that I haven't been able to sit up in bed or on my office chair to go on my desktop or even my tablet without crying from the tremendous, piercing pain I have been dealing with. Funny thing is that through all this time away from Facebook, websites, blogs, job & e-mails, I haven't even cared or desired to turn on the PC to see what I was missing or had to deal with or what bill to pay.

 

It's all still here over 2 weeks later.

 

I do first want to thank my precious Lord for being in my life & using this new Doctor that our Pastor recommended to help me. God took this doctors hands to lay them on me in my first visit, & he did wonders to me!! Still seeing him and getting better with each visit. He is a miracle worker.

 

To all my wonderful, loving friends and The Bridge Church members I now consider my family, for always thinking of me in their prayers, and for asking God to take this pain away and to make me well. I have never endured such pain in my 56 years here on earth, and during that same time never felt such love and well wishes either..

 

I graciously thank Ron's boss for allowing Ron to take 2 weeks off to take care of me, the house, our fur kids, the grocery shopping & so much more, because I don't know, I mean I know I couldn't of done it in my condition alone. Ron did so much for me and poor guy I'm sure is exhausted. I think he has a new appreciation now for all I do for us each day and he only got a tiny taste of all I do, but his reasons for being home the last 2 weeks was to care for me.

 

 I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband that basically had to help me walk, sit, wiped my tears of pain away, cooked for us, and when I started getting irritable at everything & everyone, & especially at him because of this pain, my inner monster took over verbally & Ron just stood there on those days as I cried out in pain I hated him, my life & so much more due to days of not sleeping because I could not get comfortable. And then my anger set in with this pain constantly consuming me and not being able to do anything for my self, Ron never lashed back at me, & that alone confirmed to me he loves me for me!!!.

 

2 weeks ago, I somehow did a number on my lower back, pinching a nerve which swelled up & I literally could not walk or lay down. For the last 2 years because of knee injury, I have been limping on my right leg but for some reason with this pinched nerve, that is gone & it took over my whole left side and I was in so much pain that Ron had to take me back to my chiropractor 4 times in one week's time. The chiro either took the pain away from my back & transferred it to my leg or my leg to my back.

 

When Ron would ask me if he could get me anything or do anything for me, I would glare at him and be moving my head around like Stevie Wonder and wailing my arms all over to find some comfortable position, and when I couldn’t find one, my head then would spin around like Linda Blair in the Exorcist and I would say "Yeah, give me the gun so I can kill myself please", and I'm sure Ron considered it a few times.

 

As of today (Monday 5-9- 16 ), after leaving the new doctor this morning, I have not taken any muscle relaxers or sleeping pills to knock me out so that I don't feel pain. I have no terrible pain!!!! Yes, I'm sore still and have a little tiny bit of pain in my back & leg and go back to the doctors Wednesday. I have stayed still all day without crying out in pain or my head going around in circles, or my arms wailing everywhere, and it's been heaven!!!!!

 

So there you have it. Through all this believe it or not, it has brought Ron & I closer in our Faith and our walk together on the right path with God. Yep, a lot of good came out of these past 2 weeks, and instead of me shouting out "Why God, why me?" I now look up and say, "Thank you God for letting me see that with no pain, no gain.".

I truly am blessed.